Alright, after hours of research, I found various potentially magnificent/helpful indie filmmaking books, but since I’m a filmmaker on a budget — I weeded through them — to the most presently pertinent and bought the on amazon.com (shipping within 5 – 8 business days) for $46.70. Bargain hunted and got 1 used and 3 new — which turned out cheaper than “used” because of amazon’s super-savings shipping deal.
Throughout these years of research, I’ve come across countless helpful websites — an OVERWHELMING amount — but during this specific search I delved into the advice of these two:
1) List of Indie Filmmaking Book Recommendations
2) List of Indie Filmmaking Websites
What they said, coupled with a bunch of other stuff I read, brought me to buy these 4 books:
OF MOTIVATIONAL/INSPIRATIONAL/ETHICAL/CREATIVE VALUE
1) My First Movie: Twenty Celebrated Directors Talk about Their First Film
2) Rebel without a Crew: Or How a 23-Year-Old Filmmaker With $7,000 Became a Hollywood Player
OF PRACTICAL/TECHNICAL VALUE
3)From Reel to Deal: Everything You Need to Create a Successful Independent Film
4) The Insider’s Guide to Independent Film Distribution
The biggest stress for me proves to be NOT reading EVERY book and article I come across, which could potentially assist me in KNOWING how to more perfectly execute this process. I think at times — if I know more, school myself more, prepare myself more — I’ll pull off the film more perfectly. Sort of like a toddler obsessed with walking — she can study other kids’ walks, ask them how they do it, ask her mother (the doctor) how physiologically legs are able to move in such a balanced effortless way, ask her father how he gets them to run so quickly because she’d love to run that fast too …
Yes, all of this information will help ease her into walking and later on running, but only attempting it will actually get her DOING it. Practice — only in experience — makes progress …
Therefore, I have to let my little perfectionist toddler school herself in theory, but only while she takes action in reality.
Experience is where feeling makes sense to body and consequently, movement acquires meaning. It’s a fine balance — preparing oneself to take action and taking it.
A balance that seems entirely personal and subjective … Balance, I believe, is gauged by individual intuition.
Intuition: Listening to the wisdom between my ears where thoughts and words go quiet. Where knowledge rests, effortlessly understood, and instincts bow, awe-struck, to Nature’s orders …
Making a movie is, in fact, exactly like walking. First you observe/absorb the act in order to prepare for it and then you do it when intuition says so — applying to the best of your ability what you learned — in order to grasp, better, and master it. Intrinsic to this process, of course, is a lot of risk and stumbling.
What I spewed was just a lot of babble blah blah for what I really meant to say:
I’m excited to learn from books and real-life experience how to make mah’ beloved moooobie! But I have to stay aware of my tricky perfectionism or I’ll waste away in the safety of study and always theoretically “know how to make a feature” … but not in actuality 
STAY ALERT to your sly self-sabotaging ways, Banethita!
The icing on mah’ cake is that tonight after work, my friend Dustin was kind enough to offer me his free extra ticket to as he calls it, “A Tricked Out Technicolor lecture on historical & philosophical influence of color vocabulary” a.k.a. WHAT IF ESQUIMAUX HAD NO WORDS FOR BLUE? The History & Philosophical Significance of 19th Century Color Vocabulary Studies – An Illustrated Lecture by – PROFESSOR ZED ADAMS. Yes!
Strategy for Tomorrow:
1) Spiritual Maintenance: Finish breaking down my whole life inventory (80 pgs 9 point font) to read to my mentor on Monday/let go.
2) Watch a film that I’d like Dear Dios to take visual inspiration from on Fandor: A curated service for independent and international films on demand. The Fandor team scours the globe for award-winning narrative features, docs and shorts screened at film festivals around the world … Aims to be a destination for film-lovers and filmmakers who look past the multiplex to a world of inspired, beautiful and surprising film.
Thanks for the link, Arianne Sved!
BLOGGIMIA 